(Source: griffshot, via benwhuzhere)
(Source: griffshot, via benwhuzhere)
I’ve passed high school, I’ve passed college, &now I’m embarking on a whole new path much earlier than I believed to. Actually no— This is the exact kind of timing I imagined. Six months after graduating in the fall and I will now be beginning my first “Real World” job tomorrow. Free time will now be limited but in all honesty, there is nothing I should complain about because this is what I’ve been crossing my fingers for all along. I want to be someone successful. I want to be someone who loves what they do. I want to be someone that’s doing what they’re doing solely for themselves. Nervousness, excitement, and anticipation. It’s all so much but it’s all that I’ve wanted since I’ve graduated high school. All I’ve wished for was to see myself doing bigger things that even I couldn’t have imagined. Although this is just starting, who’s to say what my hand of cards hold for me. I’m doing something that can enlist me as someone actually growing up. I can’t wait for the stories I’ll be able to tell in another six months. I can’t wait to come home and open up a bottle of wine as I celebrate my first paycheck. I can’t wait to just own the moments I’ve worked so hard for— Because like everyone else, we earn the moments we deserve for all the efforts we’ve given.
Tomorrow is just the start of a whole new beginning.
…&I can’t wait!
One of the biggest blessings I could possibly ever ask for and continue wishing to one day have is to find the kind of love my parents still have for each other after 24 years. I want to have a family exactly like the one we have right now. I want to have the kind of love that others cannot only describe as strong but as endearing and fulfilling. They exemplify the kind of couple that most hope to be. 24 years sounds minimal to others but may as well also sound like a lifetime to whomever else. By this time next year, I cannot wait to successfully be wishing them well on their 25th.
All I have to say for the couple that they are today whether it be by chance, destiny, or a true given blessing is that my parents.. Met on a blind date.
&They have lived and continue to live happily for almost a quarter of a lifetime together. For their day together, my mom and dad spent their time sitting on the couch taking turns watching each others’ recorded shows and sharing snacks while resting from a mini weekend vacation to Palm Springs. Life couldn’t look as simple and blissful as their anniversary scene looked tonight.
This is the kind of blessing I hope for everyday.
Three of the most incredible professors I’ve had the pleasure of meeting: Prof. Brusasco, the kindest of spirits who I purposely made sure I had to take another class with. Prof. Scott, the head of the PM program & who I confided in when the idea of graduating and the life after it made me so anxious. &Finally Dr. Wakefield, he was one of my first professors ever and it was his CADV 150 class that became one of the anchors in my decision to switch from Undecided to Child Development 🎓✏📚 #grateful #myfuturelettersofrecommendation #CADVprofessors #someofthebiggesthugsihad#madethemproud #theymadecollegerewarding
This is as much my day as it is yours. This is for you two. With all my heart, thank you for being my main constants in life. If I’m ever as ready as I can be for the real world.. It’s because of everything you’ve both taught me individually & together. I wouldn’t have wanted to make anyone more proud than the two who have always prayed, wished, and hoped the best for me every day we wake up. I love you guys ❤ #myparents #everybitdeserving #graduationday #finallywalkedthestage #swaguzman #wheretheswagcomesfrom #tooemotional #toosurreal
They ask me why I’ve invited/chosen to celebrate with so many?
Because I owe my successes to those who kept me strong and sure of myself. I owe my parents for keeping us out of loans and for putting up with the bullshit I fight about on a regular basis. I owe my family because no one can love you more than they do whether they are always present or not. I owe my friends because no one got me through my stresses, procrastinations, and caffeinated fixes as much as they did.
They ask me why I’m nervous?
I haven’t seen my life pace in such a short time span. I’m as excited as I am nervous because as school is (for now) over and done with, I need to finally face the music and jump into the real world. Head first. I want to be someone that I’m proud of. &If other’s expectations of me weren’t enough.. The only expectation I hope to come even remotely close to are my own. I’ve worked hard to make those close to me as proud as they can be but I’ve worked harder to prove myself wrong— I’m much more than whatever the “college freshmen” Julienne sought out to be.. In grades, in making close connections, & in aiming for unimagined dreams. I’m nervous now because now, as a graduate & an adult, I have twice as much to prove to myself when it comes to building a career life.
They ask me how meaningful it is to walk again?
It’s because there’s no other obvious way to realize you’ve gotten through yet another chapter in your life. I can’t wait to embrace and bid adieu to yet another memorable chapter for the books. My new “old” pictures to reminisce through will now be of my college days which to say has been more eventful than I would’ve expected. &High school photos will be the new “baby pictures” / “#tbt”. Walking again just gives me that unnatural butterflies-in-your-stomach kind of high because it’s my moment. It’s every graduate’s moment up there and it deserves to be recognized.